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June 4, 2019

The electrogravitic crafts are increasing in number now. The amount of spraying done is staggering, and I have been watching for over ten years, and becoming very vocal about it since 2011. The number of cloaked crafts too is unprecedented. From the cover they are laying, it looks to me that Nibiru is crossing now in a transit from the E/NE.

For about a week now, every night it sounds like a river is flowing in the sky. About a month and a half ago, I wrote here that it sounded similar to that. Perhaps its system is so close now that tracking is more difficult, AKA the forest for the trees? Sometimes I think that the Dobbs Model and Albers the Physicist are off. There are ancient and enormous volcano forms rising up in a line deep under the ocean, approaching Connecticut. Archeological remains and roads are rising up from under the ocean floor in the Bermuda Bimini area of Atlantis. THEY LOOK TO BE LEYLINE GRIDMARKERS. Some big YouTube channels talked about this phenomenon, but failed to understand it.

Earth is unfolding to refold. It does not happen in a constant moment (as the word vision I had at age 19 said – I guess that makes me an oracle?). Typical “weathercasters” call the HAARPed area of the NEXRAD map “gravity waves” – HAHAHA! @MikeMostwill removed the tweet I refer to but here is the @MrMbb333 video showing the rising undersea formations offshore in the East Coast MidAtlantic ocean.

Should I offer cookies again? (Must I spell this out, the reference?) And to think the Annunaki who run this world still think they can control the process of cashing in as their home comes into our magnetosphere, as I blogged about here, in frantic denial of prophecy coming true, predictions made and preserved by scribes long before Mesopotamia was established (yes these records were kept, but hidden – it’s hard to get THEM, but in reading the ones we CAN read, they are quoted and referred to).

Not many seem to give heed to the roadmaps for this territory we were left in all the ancient texts.

THE ANNUNAKI TRANSFER IS HAPPENING NOW.
Eyes anywhere else are distracted ones.

I BELIEVE THAT THE CLOAKED SHIPS ARE TAKING THE GOLD RESOURCES – AND BLOOD AND HUMANS, WHOLE OR DISMEMBERED – TO DOCKING PLATFORM STATIONS TO RELAY WITH NIBIRU AND THAT SOUL COLLECTION IS HAPPENING. This has been what the Akkadians – the Annunakis – have done for possibly as long as 340,000 years, in approximately 12-year cycles.

To me the is THE MOST RATIONAL EXPLANATION for their creation of geoengineering and the 5G control grid.

The sudden success of late term and live birth abortion, the push for pedophilia and human ritual sacrifice add more evidence that they are taking human resources. We are their human resources. They are DESPERATE and like every other cycle of the crossing of their home planet, they are doing the same. It is coming to a crescendo pitch.

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Cloaked Annunaki craft over buildings in London where POTUS is visiting, collecting human resources during the Nibiru transit.

Dogs let outside to use the yard to potty and run around often begin barking wildly, and whining and howling inconsolably. When I go out into the world, people everywhere look lost, angry and basically, tortured.
And fat. They all are fat with parasites.
And it originally was not the fault of humans. Religion, Inc. lied to everyone. This is the worst crime of all, making the fall of humankind possible.

I wrote this yesterday morning:

It sounds like a river running, a coursing river of rapids, coming from the sky above.
The electromagnetic plasma arc storms; two yesterday, onethe day before that. It’s become almost daily now.
The sound: like far-off huge, low rushing, like engines trawling, but from above! You can hear it and feel it in your chest; your core: it’s undeniably real, audible, a constant.

Last night in the middle of the night [that would be the wee hours of 3June EST], the skies as far as I could see out my upstairs windows were clear; I could see ALL THE STARS. They were clearer than ever.

I could see them there three nights ago, too. I knew I would because my room was dark, like night ~should~ be… no “noctoluminescent clouds”. Eleven of them (“new cloud names”) were invented with name terms for the geoengineering coverup of The Destroyer coming in as it has since Lucifer rebelled and came to earth to be called Enki. I think “they” let the stars show at night so they can see and navigate these resource transports off-world by them, since they harvest so much along shorelines and in urbanized areas. No WONDER they want to move people out of the rural, remote areas and into planned zones.

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And at 6AM, full daylight. I thought I’d slept until 8Am EASY. A supersonic jet flies by and leaves a trail of the vapors that drop into [as I type this out, a loud emergency siren that sounds like the tsunami warning system just went off. BTW, those towers are here now too. In Potato Chip town on the east coast.  Regularly spaced puffs hanging like bulbs from a string across the sky – like an epoxy, a two-part admixture of aerosolized particulates – and by the time I could get my camera, they’d HAARPed it into the beginning of a whiteout.

And to the what-I-once-called-west the dull reddish glow haze of red-oxide Nibiru (red from the blood of souls they sacrificed, and ALL THE ABORTIONS AND ORGAN HARVESTING, and we are in it’s apron, the fearsome twin tail of Wormwood.

The storms will continue, and worsen. Be prepared.

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Know that LOVE WINS THIS BATTLE, but do NOT be complacent. Get OUT of your comfort zone and infuriate people. Heap burning coals of kindness on their head as you stand consistent and firm in re-educating them as to what’s really going on. Point out how poorly humans are faring now.

Focus your heart intention on everyone you love. If you can, fast. If you have never fasted, try for one day. Then gradually increase. And do the hacks that I share with you. Do the ETA Ropeworm Protocol you can request HERE. Get off the computer more and LIVE. Meditate and pray, and share what you know with others.

This is THE TIME. THE OPPORTUNITY IS NOW, since they have already seized it, and are seizing as many of us as they can. You have GOT TO WAKE PEOPLE UP TO THE HUMAN CLONING CENTERS. Show others the drawings my children did!

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The images of child abuse in black and white, depicted as dolls, are from this video, which one must now sign into YouTube to watch, as it is marked 18+, even though public schools teach sex to kindergarteners now.

I began my Dollwork art series, which my secretly transgender newsman ex-husband stole from me, in 1996. I created this piece called DRIPPING KEYS, and it won first place in Baltimore’s SOWEBO Festival Art Show in 1997.  I made it to process the child abuse I endured from birth, perpetrated by family, church and the system.DrippingKeysCopyrighted450p He stole that from me.

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This half-man whose YouTube channel banner is a shot of the mast truck he operates for a major network in DC. Yep, the false flag Sandy Hook. What a lizard.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Getting this out now. Keep your vibration high. Stay alkaline and take in lots of vitamin C.

Love you, my family ❤

Tags: abortion, children, human cloning, LOVE, Nibiru, PlanetX, PTSD, satanic ritual abuse, SRA, The Destroyer, Wormwood

© EATING TO ASCEND – THE ASCENSION DIET 2019
@EatingToAscend http://eatingtoascend.com

In Memory of Nichole Travers Little Cabana, recount of visitation

Added the visitation…

THE ASCENSION DIET

#TRIGGERWARNING
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Nichole, Bean Hollow, 2012

I was called last night by my daughter-in-law’s roommate, who realized no one had told me that she overdosed last week. I had been with her two days before, taking gifts for her and my granddaughter (named after my daughter and Nichole’s twin sister).

I stand against you Satan until my last breath fighting your evil in this life we are all in in this world you have corrupted and lives you destroy.

I am so sad for my granddaughter, she is not yet 14. Nichole’s twin sister, her mom and siblings and friends. I am loving each of you. Sending all my love.  Doing all I can to not cry and produce trauma energies for their collection.

Nichole had begun to embrace the knowledge I was sharing. (She had seen Afflicted, before our reuniting after a few years being separate – her ability to forgive…

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If you are one of the elect, you have purer genes – the Tribe Of Dann (DaNaan)

My (first, ex) mother-in-law’s maiden name is Dann. She is paternal grandmother to my children. Their father’s paternal great-great-great grandfather, a Little, was gardener to Queen Victoria in England and of Scottish descent. This is the blood my children have on their father’s side.
The Red-haired Race – Giants of Danann (Dann).
My deceased daughter-in-law and her twin are Rh Negative. They have extra teeth as do all the Littles. I did not. As a matter of fact, my two bicuspids each cracked in half and had to be pulled, and the dentist said there was no reason except my body rejected them. They are superglued together in a bag I have of teeth. Flawless.
I have very little Nephilim genes. My kids and most people have a lot.
I wanted to share this here in hopes that you may be spurred to examine your own past. However, do not have your blood tested by the geneology services like 23 and Me, etc. They are creating a database of nephilim genes to repopulate the earth after the cataclysm – the apocalypse. They will fail, but do not volunteer your DNA to anyone anymore. There are reasons for this so complex I will not go into them here at this time.
People are targeted MKUltra and other alphabet agency programs (what government exists for) for their high amount of VMAT2 gene expression, indicating that they have lower levels of Luciferian DNA. The CIA created a vaccine which was deployed all of the face of the earth, to destroy what they call “The God Gene”. It was sprayed from moving vehicles: planes, trains and automobiles. Since 2002 in chemtrails  and geoengineering.  Here is a video of the leaked Pentagon briefing. It is called “Fun Vax” – a vaccine for fundamentalist believers.
Also this webpage is full of data… with thanks to Rex Bear of Leak Project. Good man.
Yeshua came to earth as a DNA rescue mission and already broke the bond of sin within our DNA (see the document about the ex-Illuminati whose DNA revealed the third parasitic strand – you have to read, though, and watch a video – I EDUCATE HERE ON THIS BLOG, THIS IS NOT ENTERTAINMENT – and if you are not detoxed, or are saturated with fluoride in your pineal gland and bathed in WiFi and eat the food they make all consume, etc, you may not be able to read). Sin is a genetic defect.

 

If You Doubt Your Worth, Listen To This

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You’re so beautiful. You’re the most beautiful I ever saw. You cost me everything I had, but you were worth it. I’m glad I got you. I love you.

Think of yourself as a uniquely beautiful and valuable pearl. Do you know that pearls are the result of suffering? It is out of the suffering of an oyster that a pearl comes forth. So maybe you’ve been through suffering, and you question whether God really loves you [or even if God exists]. Over the span of human history the truth of who we are has been hidden by the royalty, governments and churches and the elite, creating a schism in the human psyche regarding the truth of who we are.

We are NOT unimportant, insignificant or worthless. We are EXTREMELY VALUABLE. We are the pearl of great price.

All negativity and trauma is from the evil forces, called occult, satanic, witchcraft. People have been deceived and see the world upside-down; inverted. People think they are insignificant and hate themselves. We are being attacked by witchcraft via chemicals, medications, water, air, food, TV and radio, all music, frequencies, social media, and everything in the artificial construct called our world.

You have value. You are a divine being convinced you’re space junk.
E, you mean everything to me. My love enfolds you, and carries you. It is inescapable, and in our DNA.

Wake up. You are a spiritual being. LOVE IS CREATION, LOVE DOES NOT CREATE TRAUMA. To break the trauma trap all you need to do is accept that you have been decieved, and be free. The price was paid, you owe nothing. It’s been yours and mine and ours all along. We were tricked. Now we know.

BE THE LOVE / YOU ARE LOVE / LOVED /LOVE HAS WINGS

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How To Overcome Betrayal, Rejection and Loss of Who You Love

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Just open yourself up and expose yourself. And if you’re wounded, let LOVE flow out of the wounds.

DIVINE LOVE DOES NOT DRAW BACK OR TURN AWAY. DIVINE LOVE TOTALLY EXPOSES ITSELF AT THE COST OF EMBARRASSMENT, SHAME OR BETRAYAL.

LOVE CAUSED JESUS TO EXPOSE HIMSELF TOTALLY ON THE CROSS.

LOVE DOESN’T HIDE. LOVE DOESNT WITHDRAW, LOVE DOESN’T TURN AWAY, LOVE DOESN’T COVER UP.

THE WOUNDS IN THE FLESH ONLY EXPOSE LOVE AND OPEN A WAY FOR IT TO FLOW FORTH.

WHEN YOU’RE ABOUT TO BE WOUNDED BY SOMEBODY YOU LOVE, WHAT DO YOU DO, TURN AWAY? DEFEND YOURSELF? RESIST? OR EXPOSE YOURSELF?

LOVE EXPOSES ITSELF WITHOUT MEASURE AND NEVER HOLDS BACK.

YOU REMAIN THERE, HOLDING SPACE, LOVE CONNECTING PERFECTLY AND INFINITELY.

LOVE IS THE MOST POWERFUL FORCE IN THE UNIVERSE.

I LOVE YOU MY GRANDDAUGHTER. STAY STRONG MY DARLING. YOU MAY NEVER READ THIS BUT I AM WRITING IT HERE. REMEMBER SITTING NEXT TO ME, WHEN I TOLD YOU THAT LOVE CONQUERS ALL. YOU ARE LOVED BEYOND MEASURE.

You are enfolded in my wings every moment every day, and covered with Love and protection, my darling. I hold that piece of soul you tore off and you have all of mine protecting you with God. The suffering will ease, my dear child. LOVE HEALS ALL. YOU ARE COVERED IN LOVE <3<3<3 ~Gramma

In Memory of Nichole Travers Little Cabana, stolen from life on December 20, 2018

#TRIGGERWARNING
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Nichole, Bean Hollow, 2012

I was called last night by my daughter-in-law’s roommate, who realized no one had told me that she overdosed last week. I had been with her two days before, taking gifts for her and my granddaughter (named after my daughter and Nichole’s twin sister).

I stand against you Satan until my last breath fighting your evil in this life we are all in in this world you have corrupted and lives you destroy.

I am so sad for my granddaughter, she is not yet 14. Nichole’s twin sister, her mom and siblings and friends. I am loving each of you. Sending all my love.  Doing all I can to not cry and produce trauma energies for their collection.

Nichole had begun to embrace the knowledge I was sharing. (She had seen Afflicted, before our reuniting after a few years being separate – her ability to forgive and love was great.) Before I left last Monday (her twin was with us all day too, us three girls like in old times years past) she said she was wrapping her mind around it, it made her forehead hurt. HER PINEAL WAS OPENING. Praise the MOST HIGH.

Note From Nichole, age 15

LOVE HAS WINGS LOVE HAS WINGS LOVE HAS WINGS

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

I love you Nichole. I lift you up to our Creator, the Most High. He knows everything you were considering and trying to understand. He knows your heart. Your heart is Good. We are all trauma victims.

Added on January 13, 2019:

I have been writing a book called SUPERNATURAL IN MY LIFE. I did not know that Nichole had died until the 26th when her roommate (the one who followed the advice in my post DO THIS WHEN YOU REFUSE A VACCINE) called. There I was, sending texts, emails, leaving voice messages after the 18th when we were last together. I have had supernatural things occur as long as I can remember, back to age two. Never forgotten.
I wrote this early on the morning of December 21st. I write so much that this was ‘backburnered’ in my mind until, reading aloud to my friend the chapters I have finished in the book. This dear friend who helped me have my granddaugher’s weighted blanket custom-made and shipped to her because his own son almost OD’d on fentanyl just two weeks before Nichole did. (This is true #empathy.) He has known me since I was 20, old friends with the my children’s grandparents. As I began to read the most recent event of December 21st, I realized Nichole had come to visit.
Here is what I wrote, less than twenty-four hours from her death, less than 25 miles from her body in the mortuary, without knowing – NO ONE TOLD ME – she had died.

4AM WALKED INTO KITCHEN IN DARK FOR WATER, THERE WAS A FLASH OF ENERGY, December 21, 2018

At about 4AM I walked naked (I usually wear sleep clothes now, for rapture preparedness, but last night felt constricted, irritated skin, dry?) into the kitchen for lemon water (alkaline) and as I took my first step past the threshold of my bedroom door into the kitchen space there was a very fast, very intense, tight small flash of light that immediately disappeared through the wall below the window – toward the graveyard. It was very fast, very intense, very concentrated and very real and it happened like a hand clap and was gone. I felt as I poured my water like a presence lingered. I believe it was a disembodied spirit, and was keeping place with the art materials I am giving Emily. I photographed them yesterday and sent the photos to Cherie, Nichole’s roommate, since Nichole’s phone is off right now. The two boxes of art supplies are full of love. Just as when I experienced the spirit throwing my portfolio then book at the Little’s, and heard the footsteps running in the hall, so did Mamaux, just as a spirit came out of my unplugged, turned off Powerbook in 2017, this was real. It is in form like the whirl of manifestation of a jinn in cartoons. Genie. An entity.
I am so glad I am moving from here, and getting away from these demons concentrated in this forsaken church building place of pain and death. This dead town full of zombies. Not that any other location does not have them. But this ground I live on is literally full of death, being a graveyard, and old church from 1870 whose founder/minister the owners disinterred when they put in the basement steps.
If you want to see a human spirit leaving the body, watch the video at the bottom of this blog post… 

Interdimensional Parasites, The “Imaginary Entities”, Child Abuse and Advanced Technology

We see now the scale tipping as veils are shed and third eyes are opening.
They are sparing nothing in their what-will-be-futile attempts to ultimately control us.
The imperative is to share this knowledge with as many as you are able. This takes time, as the cognitive dissonance is the one factor which can stand in the way of waking up loved ones.
It may seem slow, but there are times, and times for seasons, which change.
The Most High knows exactly how long this game is, and we play it until the last soul is saved.
Share this post please.
LOVE.

Underground Bases DNA Activation The Unveiling

Interdimensional Etheric Beings

These beings utilize the human emotional and mental bodies which are a form of standing bio-emission field around the physical body, to co-inhabit and sustain their existence.

These beings can travel through media, information, ideas, or emotional contact between an infected source to a non-infected sentient organism.

The way that these beings materialize is through the use of “Teslian” or scalar-wave emitters which are generators that pulse out electrical, magnetic, and consciousness energy which is a trinary force that the brain and body also pump out. When these emitters are powered high enough, the energy of the mind is literally tangible. Thoughts are visible in one way or another, emotions are perceptible, and ideas become lucid and interactive. This creates a kind of dreamy, alternate reality experience for everyone within the range of the emissions.

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BREATH OF LIFE

A site I have been going over is Spiritual Science Research Foundation. We have been lied to since – easily the pre-Pharaonic era of Egypt. Plato, Socrates and Solon spoke of these mysteries. The elite have diluted us to shells of who we really are. Whether you realize it or not (I see it in your struggle of duality, in you, see it easily as in myself), the struggle is so real and getting more tangibly difficult. The reason is that things are changing so fast now with the electromagnetic, cosmological and dimensional (timeshift) changes. This is why they are building the FEMA camps, creating One World Govt, martial law, the social credit system, cryptocurrency, etc. The solar/space/emf grid programs. Common Core mis-education. Vaccines. On and On and On.
In this site, they explain the three components making up the percentage of a person; their balances and the meaning. If the bodily falls to less than 20%, the person will dematerialize. I have experienced this is minor, partial ways during fasting and detox. I have felt my body move through space and time as I thought I perceived it – habitually – as if I was moving through waves of aether, like a vapor mirage radiating effect, looking down at myself. I have even written notes and arranged items in these times, in case I did “disappear”.

I … think I … am still here.

Is that because I am thought-generated? Thoughts not my own. The inner knowing/gnosis when thoughts stop and the heart speaks is the me of Love and Creation, creations of these souls I miss (family) who are… in the matrix.

So what most fulfills me now is sending waves of love to everyone I love. To those from my body, and those related. And to everyone who has been traumatized. That’s all of us.
Long ago I could not take city buses. I would cry, seeing how people treated each other. I went to “a therapist” – a mistake – who said I had “universal depression”/was depressed for the universe.

When I first started going it was in 1987, after my brother suicided. I took a list of questions, and the first question – most important – was “Can we incorporate spirituality into my therapy?” She said no, we would focus on getting the basics and that could come later. I actually saw her again about 6 years ago, for issues related to my divorce from the secretly-trangender Washington DC newsman and his having stolen all I owned from me in basically what is a court-sanctioned theft and life-destruction. I saw her for only a few sessions because it was worthless to me. Do you know what the first thing she said to me was, after years of having not seen me?
“I want to apologize to you for not letting you address spiritual issues in your therapy when we started years ago.”
That woman, I found out, randomly almost, was an ex-Catholic nun and a repressed lesbian who never married or had children. I never knew that about her all those years. That person advised me on how to destroy my family.
So now I advise anyone who asks me about therapy to avoid it, that finding a therapist who acts from a place of true love and understanding just isn’t possible within the paradigms of this world.
They are all a part of the agenda by the alphabet elites to destroy humanity.
Now that was a rather detouresque sidebar!

To apply this dematerialization concept to life now is a good idea. Raising our vibrations in the face of this 5G, heavy metal, agenda of hatred of all things good onslaught. I look at my children and their spouses, and they are all into witchcraft and paganism and mythology and all things nephilim, based on their beliefs, which are a product of this world. It is breaking my heart. Yet I transcend even that, with LOVE.

I keep sending them ALL my love. I keep my hands busy making them things, writing them things.
I LOVE THEM. I MADE THESE HUMANS IN MY BODY. My names include Mom and Gramma. (Not getting into the cloning part yet, here.)
I was traumatized, and they inherited trauma I inherited. What they do not realize is that through the renewal of spirit by Yehushua / God – the LIGHT – we are reborn and the contract with trauma is ended. In the strong delusion of acceptance and inverted ~Isms of this last cataclysmic age, they are completely MATERIALIZED, and of this world.
The strong delusion.

And for this cause God shall send them strong delusion, that they should believe a lie:” 2 Thessalonians 2:11

BUT the scalar force of LOVE through DNA carries. I carry that knowledge and in moments of frailty in echoes of implanted pain I go within and love them.

LOVE HAS WINGS.

LOVE BREAKS THE CHAINS.

LOVE CARRIES.

OUR LUNGS ARE WHERE OUR WINGS ATTACH. (This is a thought you can’t unthink now.)

SAGE ADVICE: EMBRACE A LOW CREDIT SCORE

We make a difference, every one of us.

It’s a long story, lol, but our DNA carries the information we need to return to our spiritual state, and our love carries others, our vibrations. This is why they force GMOs upon us, to dilute and break our genetic code as spiritual beings, and hybridize us with their own (reptilian in nature, or… worse…) I will be writing about that.

And a factoid reminder regarding “Natural Flavor” in food (if labelled, even). Don’t eat it. All but 7 of the tech giant Synomyx’s 77 patents refer to the use of HEK 293 (human embryonic kidney) cells, which researchers have used for decades as biological workhorses. (Yet everyone believes SNOPES for “fact checking”. Soros, anyone?)

I want to share something beautiful and inspiring. I got a call from a young mother on her way back from her 3 month old son’s first postnatal visit. She nurses him and stood her ground on NO VACCS. I met him at <4 weeks old, and he is PERFECT, alert – you can sense that ~someone is home in there~ . Well, the doctor (she put off earlier “scheduled” pediatrician visits knowing it was unneccesary/invasive. SHE IS 23, the mom) pushed hard but when she stood firm she was asked to sign a waiver. She refused, heeding the advice DO THIS WHEN YOU REFUSE A VACCINE – sign NOTHING. But she read it… And called me when she left the office to tell me that it would have incriminated her for allowing her son to spread the diseases she refused to vaccinate for to other children.

THEY ARE BLATANT IN THEIR SHUNTING OF DEPOPULATION RESPONSIBILITY, PLACING BLAME FOR THEIR OWN COMPLICIT DEATH-SPREADING ONTO THE INNOCENTS WHO REFUSE TO TAKE PART IN IT, BUT SIGN THE WAIVER.

WHEN YOU REFUSE A VACCINE, SIGN N O T H I N G.

I just turned down a “good” part-time job because they demanded a TB tine test. I could refuse the HepC vacc but not the tine… so, no job for me. I don’t trust them a bit; they’re not puncturing my skin with anything.

See what they are doing?

They are corralling the herd into death chutes. Not only physically, but more chilling, soul traps. The GMOs and heavy metals divorce you from who you were created to be (unless, of course, you’re a demon… good luck with that [sic]).

NOW IS THE TIME TO EMBRACE THE GRACE AND TRUE NOBILITY OF A LOW CREDIT SCORE.

The social credit system has been in place a long, long time. We just see it now.

PASSING WISDOM, #NATIONALPOETRYDAY2018

And the brother shall deliver up the brother to death, and the father the child: and the children shall rise up against their parents, and cause them to be put to death. And ye shall be hated of all men for my name’s sake: but he that endureth to the end shall be saved. Matthew 10:21-22

As we get older we want to pass
our wisdom to our children
A natural progression
now thwarted
Prohibited, made abhorrent by the powers that be
who dictate and distribute
perception of reality

Mine who I made in me
with fierce desire for their becoming
who became as they grew older
influenced by my own obstructions and
the datasets of others
These two human beings now
treat me like the plague

(To them I’m dead)

I’d say the system succeeded
in separating me from those I love
Shed tears exceed by thousands times days
since I have heard their voice
(silence) (wait)
If I give up hoping
I as I thought I was cease to exist

My condition as a truthsayer and Morgellons-hijacked body
(canary in a coal mine complicated with medically denied Lyme disease)
became the final door they closed
after years of loving strained by contradiction
as the programming their minds absorbed came between us
and the success they began to reap in worldly ways
reinforced the covert message to reject their mother

(emails, calls classified as spam, and blocked, all mail and contact ignored)

In my cells I feel these humans
and in my thoughts preserve them, heart: protect them
my first thought in the morning thanks the Almighty Father for another chance to love them
to redeem myself another day from the height they saw me fall
I cannot blame them for my descent
Nor for shutting the door between us
Neither am I capable of accepting this decree and moving on

That said I also transmute this gash
to restoration of my frame
The landscape of the world I inhabit (and create)
made better for their sakes (love in action)

And every day I live in love
for my children
for my grandchildren
for everyone who rejects and shuns me
Love Is All
Only love will save us
So I live in love alone
Eating – and *not eating* – to ascend

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
2 Timothy 1:7

#NATIONALPOETRYDAY2018

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